Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim....

Wahai Rumaysa,

Rumaysa...kita kena sabar ye. Abi sakit sayang. Abi bukan tak nak dukung sayang, tapi luka2nya menyebabkan dia sentiasa pedih dan sukar untuk dukung Rumaysa.

Kronologi Abi di sahkan menghidap pemphigus vulgaris buat anak tatapan anak umi:

Segalanya bermula pada Feb 2011. Masa tu, umur rumaysa tak sampai pun 5 bulan lagi. Abi menghadapi ulser yg teruk di mulut...merata pergi hospital untuk sahkan apa sakit ulser abi tu. Gi Dentist, gi ENT, gi klinik, gi SMDC, gi PPUM tapi still tak dapat dikenal pasti puncanya. Umi tak pasti kenapa abi pergi ke PPUM, tetapi disitulah abi didiagnose pemphigus vulgaris.

selepas dua minggu, tiba2 ada tumbuh spots kecik2 di badan abi, dan abi kembali ke PPUM untuk membuat pemeriksaan. Doktor GP mengesahkan abi kena campak. immediately, kami decide untuk duduk separately sebab abi kena dikuarantinkan dan kami tak nak sayang umi dijangkiti chicken pox. tinggallah abi seorang diri di vista dan kita berdua duduk di rumah jaddah di shah alam. Berbelah bahagi hati umi ketika meninggalkan abi seorang diri di vista. Tapi kami redha demi menjaga kesihatanmu sayang umi.

Selepas seminggu, blister abi makin membesar dan membesar sehinggakan lawatan kali kedua ke PPUM untuk follow up campak, doktor GP decided utk admit kan abi sebab lain macam jer chicken pox.....berpisah kita ngan abi lagi and the saddest thing is you can't see and hug your abi.

so, berkampunglah abi di PPUM dan sementara itu doktor buat biopsi penyakit abi sebab the spots doesn't look like chicken pox anymore. tapi ramai org tua2 yg tengok kata ini adalah pelentung. Macam2lah diorg mengeksperimenkan your abi sayang. Beberapa kali juga abi tukar ubat. Ubat ni tak jalan, tukar ubat lain. Then, masih tak jalan juga....tukar ubat lain sayang. Tapi abi sayang sangat tabah dan sabar. Tak pernah umi dengar abi merungut atau mengeluh. Abi redha dgn apa yg diberikan oleh ALLAH. Dhuha dan quran tak pernah ditinggalkan, walaupun untuk mengambil wudhu, sangat memedihkan apabila spots2 yg dah pecah tu terkena air. Bayangkan sayang, kita ada luka sebesar 50 sen kalau terkena air, rasa macam nak jerit, abi sayang pula hampir dikeseluruhan kaki dan tangannya sayang.

Untuk mengelakkan jangkitan pada luka2nya, abi sayang kena mandi dua kali sehari dengan air ubat. Bayangkan sayang, simbahan air yang pertama, pasti abi akan menjerit sayang. teringat ummi time sayang melecet di sayang punya tuuut....sayang menangis sambil hug ummi.....mesti pedih dan sakit kan...macam tulah abi.

Setelah doktor yakin abi sayang kena pemphigus walaupun tidak tahu apakah puncanya, barulah abi sayang diberikan steroid. steroid for life. Allah.....kesan steroid banyak sayang....tapi kita berserah dan redha. kalau abi sayang tak amek steroid....lagi besar mudharat nyer. alhamdulillah....surut semua blisters yg keluar dan makin sembuh. Inilah yang ditunggu...the reunited abi and rumaysa....walaupun abi tak boleh dukung sayang lagi.....tapi abi boleh face to face dengan anak umi nie....alhamdulillah.

BISMILLAHIRRAHMAANIRRAHIM

Dear Rumaysa yang dah pandai buat air mata kasih sejak dua menjak tak sihat nie....meleleh-leleh air mata anak umie nie. buatkan umie nak hug dia all the time.

bilala umie nak tukar layout blog nie.lepas tukar layout baru semangat sikit kot. Umie skunk ni terpikir about something. mainly how to earn more money and for your education. Umie haraboleh gain more knowledge on this two crucial things. tapi umie belum find the way and tak tau where to refer.

Ya ALLAH, aku perlukan pertolonganMU. aku dahagakan ilmu and training. juruskan aku pada jalan yang betul dan orang yang betul.

bismillahirrahmaanirrahim....

happy 7mths old my little bam bam. you shine me every second of my life......we both love you. muahxs....jadilah anak yg solehah penyejuk hati ummi and abi. Taat perintah ALLAH dan Rasulullah and tak lupa juga umi and abi

Alhamdulillah...suka makan...bagi apa je layan...umi yang kena tahankan tangan umi dr bg makanan kat dia. kalau ikutkan hati nak bg je dia rasa sume...tapi umi tahu your lil tummy still is not capable to accept all that.huhuhu

bontot dah angkat cket2.....cuma tak mengelungsur ke depan and belakang. tapi dah boleh turn to 360 degrees dah. still lagi breast feeding...alhamdulillah and will do until 2yrs insyaALLAH.

kalau umi atau jad zikir...rumaysa pun akan ikut sekali. teruskan ye sampai besar. jangan kita lupa mengingati ALLAH walau sesaat pun.

ok my little darl.....i love you soooo much

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim....

entry ini khas buat anakanda, little angel..Rumaysa sayang

sesungguhnya keimanan dan ketabahan diperlukan dalam menghadapi setiap ujian. melihat abi rumaysa yang kurus tak bermaya meruntun hati umi...seakan mahu menangis sepanjang masa. tapi umi tahu...umi perlu kuat dan ceria seperti mana rumaysa yang tidak lekang dengan senyuman. betul, tips dalam menghadapi ujian yg umi dpt dalam astro oasis hari tu. apabila ditimpa ujian, ingatlah kepada nikmat ALLAH yang lebih besar dr ujian tersebut....dan Rumaysalah nikmat yang paling besar buat kami berdua.

Diam tak diam, dah lebih 3 bulan abi sakit...insyaALLAH Rumaysa...kita sentiasa doakan agar abi sembuh dan kita boleh hidup seperti sebuah keluarga yang sihat harmoni. Alhamdulillah, sokongan jad, jaddah, atok and opah banayk membantu kita di dlm saat2 yg sukar ini. Buat sementara waktu ini...kita akan kurangkan aktiviti berjalan. paling tidak pun kita akan ke rumah jad and jaddah atau atok and opah.

Tabahlah kita dalam menghadapi ujian ini....Abi sayang rumaysa walaupun ada ketika abi kurang bermain dengan rumaysa tapi percayalah kasih -sayang abi tidak kurang walaupun sedikit.

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim....

DR Rumaysa...sedap plak letak doktor kat depan nama Rumaysa....

Rumaysa sebelum ni meniarap sekejap-kejap je..itu pun bukan depan umie and abie..but last Friday 29th April 2011 just before entering her 6mnths old birthday....dia gulingkan badan dia and terus menairap....then dukung and letak dia kat lantai...then meniarap lagi....tapi mulut memang bising....pastu penat....tak reti nak golek balik nangis....hehehehe

but on the next day, dah dapat skill baru...dah tahu dah camne nak terlentang balik....tapi memang dia hempaskan badan dia...jadi kena letak benda2 tebal supaya tak sakit kepala dia. tapi anak ummi nie kuat, tahan sakit.....takde pun menangis kalau terhantuk sikit.

Agak2nya anak ummi ni baru dapat tenaga kot nak meniarap.....dapat dari solid food...hehehe
Umie dah bagi dia makan 8 days before she entering 6mths old....tak sabar umie, sebab mulut asyik terkumat-kamit jer. by the way your first solid food is avocado....yg papaya haritu tak count sebab ummi bagi sikit je....hehehe. seronok suap dia makan.

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim....

Rumaysa maafkan umie

umie tak banyak masa ngan rumaysA

kadang2 umie selalu blame awak sebab tak cukup tidorla, takde masala

Umie juga rasa jelaous ngan development baby org lain

sebenarnya rumaysa tak bersalah umie yang bersalah tak jadi umie yang baik dan tak tolong for your development skill

Ya ALLAH, jadikanlah aku umie yang terbaik buat Rumaysa dan adik2nya.

Sesungguhnya aku sangat bersyukur dengan kurniaan MU....Rumaysa sebagai anakku

Semoga Rumaysa menjadi insan yang cemerlang di dunia dan di akhirat

dan janganlah aku berasa cemburu terhadap org lain kerana Engkau telah berikan sesuatu yang terbaik buatku

Moga aku lebih tabah dan cekap di dalam kehidupan ini ya ALLAH

Lets hear the story of the miracle birth.... Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim First of all...i was soo touch with the comments. It is really a signed from ALLAH that telling me to keep on writing on my blog. iit is shown that there are people out there who are interesting in reading my blog...especially to my bffjs. lets hear the story of Rumaysa. She was born on the 37th weeks of my pregnancy....which is 3 weeks earliar from EDD which is on the 21st of Nov 2010. I guessed she was eager to see the world and celebrating eidul adha with us...or is it i'm eating too much sweet food till she couldn't take it anymore....hahaha. oh by the way, every weekend after the hari raya, i'm be invited to the open house and of course there will be deserts and cookies which i'm into it and the first food that i'm aiming for is the cakes....sooo nyummy. ok, back to the birth story. on the 1st nov, which is on Monday, i feel something when i woke up from the sleep....but still, i went to the office as usual. the whole day, i feel like period...when your back feel ache, and your below abdomen feel stift...but still no sign of contraction or blood. i was remembered quite clear when i told the kakak in the office about my pain, she said " you will see the sign and you will deliver tonight'...i just laughed since i don't feel like giving a birth that day. Heading back to home after worked, we stopped at the stall to have dinner. Malas nak masak sebab kaki rasa tak selesa. After we reached home, as usual i'm going to take my bath before maghrib and suddenly i spotted a blood....cholacish spot. called my mom and she said....go straight to the hospital, but take your bath first and minum air yang jatuh dr basuhan rambut sebagai air selusuh. so, as a new mom to be....i just followed my mom instruction.

On the way, to the hospital....i statrted to feel the contraction....every 10 minutes i counted. Supaya nanti nurse tanya....i can answer them well. Because it was after office hours, we have been told earlier to go straight to the labour room. We bumped into my gynae Dr Siti when we entered the parking area....laa....Dr Siti dah balikla. Anyway, we just parked our car and go to the labour room. i felt anxious and excited at the same time....huhuhu. Takut pun ada, to be honest. Ok, the labour room is a restriction area. we have to rang the bell first to enter. then, the nurse take me to our individual labour room.yes, every parents have their own labour room.

its totally different from what i imagined. it is quiet there, no screaming and i also don't know how many people there. no glass window and everybody is inside their own room. so, we don't know what happen to everybody. I also didn't saw any doctor running here and there...so calm inside. before the nurse asked, i told them i saw a sign and i felt the contraction. so, the nurse asked me to change my cloth with the hospital cloth and lie down in the bed so she can measure the open in my vagina. guess what, the open not even an inch....on no...but i said, i already saw the signed....she said yes...you have saw the sign for the labour but there is no opening yet and it might get to 2 to 3 days. o oh.. she said you can go home first and call us first before coming to the hospital. we can guide you through the phone if you unsure and confiouse whether it is time for labour or not. so, it was a false alarm....but we still need to be charged...luckily it was sponsored by PMCare....alhamdulillah and thanks to TM :)

Called my mom and told her that this is only a false alarm. heading back home, i felt hungry or maybe to cover my anxiety...hehehe we stopped by at a&w. i want something sweet like the waffle. for all the time, the waffle was already finished and its only 9 pm and this a&w is open 24hours. so, i asked for choc eclairs......hahaha boleh tak.

at home, we prayed our isya' and watched the tv, my hubby favourite tv drama...criminal minds. and for me, i started to feel the contraction more frequently and painly. At 11pm, when to bed to sleep....and at 12am...i still can't slept...and more blood coming out from my vagina. at 1pm, woke up my hubby and we called the nurse in sdmc. i explained the pain, the blood and the contraction. she said, just coming over since you can't sleep.

so, we heading back to the hospital for the 2nd time.....huhuhu. to be continued.....